Date: Saturday, December 31, 2005
Time: 5:00 PM

as i take a moment to unpack the year that was, i find these precious souvenirs:

1.] things i...

tasted: OLeen's weird and crazy calamares (she made during our catering project back in 4th yr..)

looked at: the lovely "crownlike" fireworks at gbeLt.. so royaL..

smelled: Elizabeth Arden "Green Tea".. Lovin it

heard: "roCk"music.. as always.. hehe

touched: surprisesurprise..!! this year.. i was able to touch a dog..! haha..!

2.] Experiences i will cherish...

My SweetSixteen birthday bash (Jan 2005), JS Prom 2005, HS Graduation (March 2005), my 1st and 2nd sem in coLLege (Don Bosco!!), JIG X Launch Party

3.] Life lessons i learned...
Never rush. Life aint a race girl.. hear the music before the song is over.
and oh... Drink. but never be drunk.

4.] this belief I outgrew...
I have outgrown believing that i'm so lucky. because now, I believe that i'm so much more than lucky. I'm blessed.

5.] this conviction I lived by...

"I am an exotic beauty and a special girl well worth waiting for." bow.

6.] these risks i took...
going to take pa lang.. im transferring in UP. Manila...

7.] these sufferings that strengthened me...
being grounded... ugh

8.] what influenced me most...

person: Parish HiLton
book: The CLique, Gossip Girl
event: 17 Style show and tell.. hehe

9.] what i regret...

nothing.

10.] the persons who meant so much to me...

ang buong tropang deL rosario.. from d elder ones down to the cutest-axeL.. luv 'em oL..!
cJ..!
my clique: jeana, khim, amaine, xtine, lucil and leny
SCA-Choir
the whoLe IV-5
Elen, jhill, dapple and OL my other girl friends
apriL
mon
yogi
dan
bry
hans....and the whole it-A
and oL the peepz i met from don bosco
i met from d parties, soiree's, and the like.

11.] my unfulfilled desires...

to settle down and have a serious relationship... this year.. i found the guy whom i loved so much. and the others..? yeah, weLL, they made my heart beat. I got to meet many of 'em.. but there's only one whom i am ready to give my heart to. What i've had were just flings. I've put up a wall around me.. because I'm scared that if I get too serious, i'd just be opening myself up to hurt. Then I met him.. and i gave my word. If im ever gonna be serious, it would only be for him. In the end, I wish, if i'm lucky enough.. that he would reach out and get me out of the protective state i've locked myself into. I'm ready to do what it takes just for him to love me, too. *Emote* hehe..

Date: Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Time: 1:00 AM

"haven't got any sleep yet...///////////" gawd..! i kuh-not believe that everything's finally done.. I've been trying to keep myself awake since 3 am just finish this site.. shucks, im in an uber-haggard state right now.. but it feels good seeing everything in order..

i've also been listening to Halina sa Parokya for a good six hours..

LSS..? "Telepono"
can't get over it tlga.. lemme share with you guys the lyrics..
/Nagring ang Telepono/ alas kwatro ng umaga/ sabi ko/ "hello? sino to?"/ di ka nagsalita/ tinanong ko/ "heni? ikaw ba yan?"/ sumagot ka/ "oo"/ ikaw ay umiiyak/ di ako kumibo/ matagal tayong tahimik/ tapos bigla kang umimik/ iyong kinwento na nanggaling ka sa clinic/ tinanong kita kung bakit/ at sinabi mong meron tayong problema/ dahil sa pregnancy test mo kay doktora/ ikaw ay pumasa/ wala akong nasabi/ ay teka muna meron pala/ naitanong ko sa iyo/ kung sigurado ka ba talaga/ "sigurado ka ba na ako?"/ sagot mo sa kin/ "oo, gago.."/ di ko alam ang gagawin/ hindi ko alam/ so bigla kong hinang/ kunyari bigla na lang naputol nang/ masyado pang maaga/ baka hindi ko kaya/ di ko alam ang gagawin/ hindi ko alam/ sinagot ko ang telepono/ alas singko ng umaga/ sabi ko/ "o, bkt mo binaba?"/ di ka nagsalita/ tinanong ko/ "so, ano ngayon ang plano mo?"/ sumagot ka/ "ikaw?"/ sumagot ako/ "ako? bakit ako? ikaw?"/ sumagot ka/ "bakit ako lang?"/ bigla kong natauhan/ pareho tayong may kasalanan/ imbis na makipagaway/ lumunok ako ng konting laway/ ito ang ating gagawin/ pagbubutihan natin/ isipin natin ang kailangan/ "ano kaya ang magandang pangalan..?/

Date: Sunday, December 25, 2005
Time: 2:00 AM

it is only 10am yet im already up and all... i left everything hanging last night.. my uncertain status on YM, my unanswered text messages, my half done closet..( yah, the maid took a week off).. Normally, the only colors that dominate my closet are pink and black (my signature colors).. but now, evaluating the mess i did in there, i see all clothes of different colors everywhere. btw, i've been shopping for quite some time.. but ugh., did not find anything worth enuf for me to wear on christmas eve.. i can't just wear pink and black like i do on a normal day.. this is Christmaseve! so, i shud be dressing up more appropriately. get it..? mwah

so i stayed up all night chatting.. texting (with sew many peepz).. and deciding what to wear for today.. all at the same time. it was fun naman.. i got to talk with many of my friends until 6 am.. and also came up with what i think i should wear todei. I fitted the clothes i picked up from, i think, the hundredth hanger i took off from the rack. And like what Massie of The Clique always did, i stood in front of my mirror and tilted my head to the right. I quote, She always did that when she tried on a new outfit. The off center angle helped her see what she looked like through someone else's eyes. It was the closest thing to a second opinion, unquote. anyway.. im gonna wear a green tubeskirt from Terranova, tied on one side of my waist, with a white Ralph Lauren polo worn as a bolero over it.. pair it with a denim skirt from K2.. wear it with my silver stuff and my Skechers "Somethin Else" and i'm good to go. mwah

So,what's with my uncertain status in YM and unanswered text messages.. it explains how unstable i am right now. Yes.. my vacation is fun naman.. when dad said, "merry christmas my princess, go shopping. sky is the limit, ok?" couldn't be any happier. I enjoyed staying up late for the nonstop parties i went to.. and waking up late not worrying about anything, like being late for my first subject. All was so good. yet, it feels as though something big is missing...

Date: Sunday, December 18, 2005
Time: 3:52 AM

How would you define Christmas?

"Thinking about Christmas makes me all gooey. I believe that Christmas is the time to forget all the troubles of the past and enjoy the time and the life God gave us when He sent His Son to save us. With that thought in mind, I make it a point to visit his house and thank Him..."

Date: Tuesday, December 6, 2005
Time: 12:10 AM

ON A MONDAY

Date: December 05, 2005 ...timecheck: 8:10:42 am

todei.. is a nice monday.. a really really really nice monday. a nicie nice monday.. for latecomers. i actually woke up at an early hour of 5:30am but my eyes got fixed on the spinning lamp in my dark room...then that's it. I just stared there for like two hours. Next thing i knew, it was already thirty minutes before my math122. but still... no panic came over me. because aside from the famous rule of royalty.. there's this one line from "The Clique": "You are an exotic beauty.. and a special girl worth waiting for."

and it's enough to remind me never to rush. ^_^

Date: Monday, December 5, 2005
Time: 5:27 PM

talk about my sunday.. Not my sundae. i mean my sunday.. hehehe... when i woke up, it was 11am, and i was looking, oh, so totally ah-mazing. After doing my own ritual, (u know, toothbrush, text, shower, text, surf d net, text, breakfast, text.........), dressed up, and off with my family for our sunday mass. After the mass, came me and sydney's moment of shopping. Glorietta was packed by sweaty and low class shoppers because of the friggin sale season. so we decided to save our energy and just printed some photos at kodak and ate Hello Kitty waffles (it's yummy, really).. then by sunset, we're already in gbeLt3.. where we saw Dan, had some frap in starbucks while watching the ah-dorable fireworks.. then family dinner at Ebun. And while the elder del rosario's are having their murmur thing, me and sydney checked out beauty bar and marks&spencer.. but there's this funny thing i really can't figure out until now.. swear i won't go to sleep without knowing the answer to... why are there ants crawling under my skin..?? ugh...!!!

and that's how everything went.. mwah!

Date: Thursday, December 1, 2005
Time: 9:00 AM

im currently doing a major sabotage on my anageom subj... my prof sucks.. bigtime!!!! luv the subject.. hate him! hate him! hate him! uUgghh..!

anyway, just finished reading the 3 books of the CLique.. and it's so totally sweet..